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JAVON - SPRING 2006

ROMANTA & JAVON - WINTER 2006
JAVON'S FOURTH BIRTHDAY

JAVON - SUMMER 2005

Happy New Year Everyone!

Glad to say my holiday wasn't so bad.  I spend most of it home with family and friends having small parties.  Not everyone special in my life was there, but I guess you can't always have it all.  Work is coming along good...in mid December things started to get extra busy for me, but now it's getting back to normal.  I hope you all enjoyed your holiday - feel free to share your stories.  Below are some picture I took since my last weblog.

JAVON - HALLOWEEN 2005

JAVON - CHRISTMAS 2005

Appreciating what I take for granted "My Voice!":  I've regained my  voice (THANK GOD).  I don't know if any of you have experience losing your voice completely, but it's definitely one of the most powerless feeling you can have.

Summer is almost Over:  Is it me or the summer seems to be flying by way too fast.  And, what's with the weather being so unbearably hot and dry?  I highly recommend carrying a bottle of water especially in the subway.

Felt scared and worried:  Yesterday, late afternoon it started to rain a whole lot.  My mom had left around 4PM to do some shopping in Manhattan.  She called home around 7:30PM to say she was on her way home and she didn't arrived until 12:48 AM.  I was going out of my mind wondering where she could be.  Man was i happy when the phone rang and it was her.  I didn't know if to scream at her for making us worried or tell her I love her so much and not to ever do that again (not letting us know where she is). I did both.  It seems because of the heavy rain fall she got stuck in the subway for all this time due to the trains not running accordingly.

Interesting FACTS:  Largest Feet ON A LIVING PERSON belong to actor Matthew McGrory (USA), who wears size 29 1/2 shoes.  At 17.5 in, his right foot is 0.5 in longer than his left.  Matthew stands 7ft 6in tall and pays up to $22,745 for a pair of shoes.

Pictures of my son Javon:
He will be turning 4 years in November, 2005.
I am still wowing about being his Mom.

I am so sad, because I have lost my voice temporarily.  Every year around this time I start off with a nasty cough and then I gradually lose my voice completely for a day or few. 

Q. What should I drink or do to help get my voice back?

Things are starting to get slow at work and I am getting bored.  Since last time there was one other incident with my co-worker, and I was so mad at her that I walked out of the office and found a place to cool down.  When I returned she approached me and asked to talk about it and then apologies again.  This is starting to get annoying!

Q. How much is enough?  And, how do I put an end to this if I can't tell my Boss?

On a personal level things have been good and then extremely crappy.  And, then CONFUSING!  I need to balance my life and I have to do it really soon or I will end up not liking myself too much.

Q. What do you recommend I do to get back on track with me?

Javon and his dad at Coney Island Beach - NY

Javon in his room - NY

I don't feel well and my co-worker is being a b*tch.  She wants me to be informative and when I do she dismisses my explaination.  So, I started being very brief on my answers to her questions.  A few days back she asked me if I don't like  her and I asked why would you say that?  Then she says... well, when I ask you a question you give me only the answer or one word reply.  So, I told her why and she promise to not do it again if I promise to be a little more informative with her.

Shortly after that she comes over and tells me she will be giving me some dollar amount to invoice out to the client this was about 11 AM.  Then around 3:45 PM she drops 12 invoices in my lap to create charges for and then create invoices and then to be reviewed and then emailed by her to the client knowing that I have to leave at 5 PM.  Fine, I did it and the work was done.  And, i left work LATE on Friday.    However, she mention in the dollar amount of these invoices  to leave blank she will edit and add the correct amount before emailing. Keep in mind this was on Friday. 

Then comes Tuesday... because Monday is my day off.  She comes over to me and said, can you enter the correct amount into those invoices.  WHY THE HELL DID SHE MAKE ME STAYED LATE AND CREATE THEM ON FRIDAY?!?  With this I have to change the charges then change the invoices amount then change the dates, etc.  Plus to top it off she gave me the wrong amounts to enter into the invoices ... when I was trying to subtract the previously paid invoice from the alternate invoice amount I was coming up with less "of course" because she didn't give me the TOTAL invoice cost which I needed to subtract from the previously paid invoice in order to bill the client for the remaining balance.

I am sitting there... coughing, blowing my nose, feeling all crappy because I was starting to get sick and busting my head where the hell I am going wrong with these dollar amounts.  When I asked her... she blows me off and run out to a meeting leaving me with nothing helpful.  Eventually I figure out where to look for the total invoice cost and was able to leave work at 6ish PM.  She left me a  note saying she was sorry for being rude and appreciates my help.  uh huh SURE she is! 

This have been the most cruel thing I have ever seen in person... and hate myself for not doing something about it!

A few days back I went shopping with Jimmy, Javon and my sister.  On our way back from the mall approaching a stop light this little boy came running off the sidewalk onto the street.   Jimmy stepped on the brakes just in time where there was no more than three feet between the car and this little boy who seem to be about three years old.

I saw the mother standing with her back turned towards a corner store with another child who's about five and then out came this man (supposedly the father) runs onto the street grab the little boy and with a closed fist started throwing punches at him.  He was hitting this little child so hard that it look as if the boy's back was folding into two half's.   Then he reaches down picked the child up and started to shake him in the air screaming.

It all happened so fast and seem too cruel to be true.  I don't know which one would have cause the little boy more pain .... being hit by the car or being punch like a grown man by his father?

I couldn't stop thinking about it and almost every time it came to mind I pray that such cruelty may never be inflicted into another child's life.  I can't stop asking God to protect that little child and keep him safe from that person I saw hit him. 

Today I spend half of my day sleeping and the other half cleaning up.   How boring is that?  Well, it's been a month plus since I started my new job and things have been okay.  Not quite great, but okay. 

That's the same I can say for my relationship .  It feels as though my relationship is going through a stage of boredom.   Meaning, he complains about not spending enough time with me and then when given the chance he sits in front the TV and gets lost in baseball.

I am not saying I have a bad boyfriend.... just a very uncreative one when it comes to fun!  Spoiling me with expensive gifts isn't as fun as going clubbing once in awhile or just going out on a Saturday night and doing something!

Trust me I really don't have anything against baseball, but when it interferes with my relationship then that's a problem.   I need friends!   I lost contact with most of my friends after I left NY and went to NJ.

Now that I am living back in NY I need friends again.   I know that sounds really, really corny and desperate, but it's true.

I miss those days when my female friends were around and we would go to the movies on Fridays, shopping on Saturdays and clubbing Saturday nights.   Even make it to someone's BBQ on Sundays.  How I wish for those days.

But, at this point in my life it's boring as hell.   The greatest and most important highlight of my life is Javon and when he's spending the weekend with his Dad I really feel the loneliness in my life.

Hmmm.   I think I will stop complaining and go take a long shower.   Have fun on your weekend everyone.

Job Stealer!

That's the last thing I would like to be.  I recently started a new job at an Advertising Company as the Bookkeeper.  It's a small company located in a VERY busy Wall Street district.  And, importantly everyone seems to project a nice personality.

The awkward part about taking this position was being trained by the person I was going to replace.  And, he didn't know he would be fire within two weeks of me starting.  In the meantime I had to lie to him as if I were assisting him with the bookkeeping in order to find out what he was working on and get inform relating to the bookkeeping.

Over the past two weeks I got to know him a little better and found out his wife had recently got layed off; he have two kids: a 8 years old boy and 8 months old girl.   Yesterday, the president called and asked me if I had enough information in order to start the bookkeeping on my own and I said, yes.

Then shortly after he said, he would stop by around 4:30 PM and inform the person that today was his last day.  I told him I didn't want to be there when he did that and he said okay.   So, I left shortly before 4:30PM with another co-worker and went to hang out for a little while.

I though when i came back the person would be gone, but he was there.  And as soon as we walked in he said, I guess you already know... today is my last day here!   Now here's why I feel so shitty about this...

When the position was offered to me I thought I would be starting with the previous bookkeeper knowing he's going to be replace and he would walk me through his on-going projects that needs to be dealt with.   However, on the day I started I was told not to mention I was replacing him and let him believe that I was there to learn both from him and another co-worker.

So, when the poor guy got fired on Friday I felt not only did I lie to him, but I lost his respect as a person who he was starting to like as a person.  I felt like a job stealer!   I don't understand why this situation wasn't properly dealt with by the president.

It's definitely not a nice way to bring someone into your company.  Meaning, I wonder if in time the same process of firing applied to the bookkeeper would one day apply to me?

Q.  After knowing what you know... Do you think I am a job stealer?

Trip to SoBe:
  I had a great time on my first vacation since giving birth to my little Angel.  South Beach is hot.  I got to do a few interesting, exciting firsts:  drove a jetskey; went to a nude strip club name Madonna, had a very big surprise by someone extremely special; ate at a few new restaurants: Emmirl, China Grill, and this Japanese restaurant which name I don't remember.
 
  In addition went to Club Crobar, Mansion.  Did some shopping and relax a lot around the pool and spend some time in the hot tub at early morning hours.  The private beach was beautiful ... white sand, blue green water... think about it.   Stayed at a five star hotel Loews and had an awesome view of the beach from my room's balcony.   But the best part about my trip was the company.  I had GREAT COMPANY!

Home:
Finally putting some finishing touches on the new apartment.  In other words it's coming along.
Career:
I got a job offer and will be starting Tues., May 3rd... I am really nervous.  I pray that this will work out and balancing my life will be a easy process with some hard working.
Love:
There's some GREAT Ups and serious Downs.  But who's to say... relationships are weird.  But, I am happy and I always feel love by everyone that's special to me.

Life:
Here's to Aging, Maturity, and Experiences...But, nothing beats being a mother.  My son is constantly teaching me how to be a better woman and make my life a complete whole.  Looking back at the past years I have done some really bad things to hurt some really important people in my life.  Now I am trying very hard to show them those were bad decisions I plan on not repeating.  This time I want to make my love counts not just by words, but ultimately by actions.  With that I have to stay as truthful as i can... which isn't always what others wants to hear.  But all i need for those that matters the most is to accept me for "every perfect and imperfect way of being Romanta".  This is the latest in my life... what's going on with yours?

Hope everyone had a Happy Belated Easter.  I know I did.  I got up early and we all went to the 9:00 AM mass then took Javon egg hunting.  Which wasmk  fun.  After, i wanted to go shopping for my trip which is on the countdown and when we got to the mall it was CLOSED.

Later on I went to the movies to see Miss Congeniality 2 (from 1-10 i give it a 6) and then dinner.   Later on i went on my Sunday cappuccino date  with Javon and Jimmy except Javon had milk and finger food while we had cappuccino.  Well. that was my weekend in a nut shell.

Q.  How did you spend your weekend/Easter?