Things have been crazy busy with me.  And, I have reasons...

I moved again!  That's my third move for the past year.  I know that makes me look very unstable.  But, I hope this is my last move until I am able to buy a house in NY.

For those of you that have moved or helped a friend/family member moved should know how much work goes into this process.

I feel so tired.

Other than moving not much have been going on with me.  On a good note I am going to South Beach, FL in April for a four days and three nights get-away.  I will take pictures of course.

Speaking of pictures I remember promising to post some awhile back, but never did.  I remember trying to and xanga saying something about reducing the image size. 

Well, as soon as I get some time I have to change my site layout and post those pictures up with additional ones.  I don't mean to rush off again, but I have to get going .

To my family and friends:
It's great to know that there are a few awesome people in my life that truly loves me...
Thank you for being one of them.

To everyone else:
Happy Valentine's Day to you and your loved ones.

I couldn't find the perfect Valentine picture to display; then I came across this image (above) and thought the expressions shown on the faces are all the things we go through in life with the ones we love.

So, This is my way of saying....

I love you for all that you are sad, happy, cranky, silly, etc.

Enjoy your day of love and Happy Valentine's Day to All!

Got these pictures in a forward thought I should share them.

I have great  news to share.  I finally got a JOB!  After being home for three plus years it was hard sending my three years old Angel Javon to a babysitter.  But, lucky for me it's not just any babysitter.  It's my Mom.

Today was my second day on the job and I am up to my neck in things to do , but I promise I am not complaining for it's GREAT to be working again.  I love it.

The only downside to this is that I am not the primary person that gets to be around Javon all day long.  On my first day/night sending him to my mom I told him why and he said, "No mommy ... no work ... I want to stay with mommy!"  Then he started to cry.

As soon as my sister took him.  I couldn't help it, but I felt so sad and I started to cry.  I cried so much that I ended up falling asleep crying.  I don't get to see him as much, but every second I get I cherish it with him.

This is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do "Returning to work and leaving my baby."

As I said, "I am not complaining."  I love having a job!"

I know I really need to update and change my background to fit the season of Christmas.  It's been so crazy for me.  I come home late, go to bed late and wake up early.  It feels like as soon as I hit the bed I have to get off of it.

I am truly sorry I can't add the pictures and lengthy post as planned.  But, I couldn't allow myself to not wish you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS and NEW YEAR!

Hopefully next year I will be more on top of my updates.  Be safe and enjoy your holidays.

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

I don't know about you guys, but feel free to share with me what you're thankful for this year. 

As for myself I am VERY thankful for my son, mother, sister, best-friend, boyfriend and everyone who takes the time to read, c0mment or just silently stop by my xanga site.

I promise there will be lots of pictures posted in the near week or so giving you a more visual explanation as of to why I haven't been good at keeping a more up-to-date post.

Also, with lots of appreciation I thank you all for your kind advice in reference to my previous post.   

Edited:

My baby Javon and I are sick.  He got sick first and I caught it.  Oh noOo!  I feel awful and I have a nasty cold; plus my body aches like crazy.  I don't even have a fever yet, but my body feels so cold all the time.  

I can't even breathe through my nose and my mouth is always dry.  What's even more terriable is that Javon must be feeling the same or even worst and he's only a little baby.  Man, this sucks.  Ughhhh!  Even though I feel so crappy I wish i could take his sickness away and make it mines.  

Q. Any advice on how Javon and I can get well fast?

Bring me my HOT CHOCOLATE and WARM BLANKET because I am convince that a really cold winter is coming our way.  Where did my lovely hot summer days go?  I should have hid some away for days like these where my fingers are frozen from the cruel coldness of an early winter.

Ever heard that expression "Time WAITS for NO MAN."  With that being said, I sing to myself.... 

Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday to Romanta!  How old are you now?  How old are you now? ??? "TWENTY-SEVEN"
Well, not yet, but will be on HALLOWEEN DAY.  So, it's only a few days from now I will be hearing that song.
I ask, where does the time go?  A few years back I was now hitting my teen years, then came the legal "legal" age of twenty-one and six years later I am about to hit the big "2" "7".

BEST GIFT EVER!
My best 24th after-birthday gift was and always will be my son Javon.  He was born four days after.  Hard to believe, but my little baby is turning "THREE YEARS OLD" on "NOV.,4th".
I still find myself admiring him when he's asleep or playing with his toys.
Only the other day he was trying to say his first few gaggas and goggos now he's saying his ABCs, counting from 1-20, knows his shapes, and identify his colors (have it taped for evidence of proof).  I know this proud mother can't shut her trap up about her everlasting Angel of a Son.

Mental Note to all: Send Romanta some ducktape to shut her trap up.

Hmmm...  if it haven't crossed your minds yet, it will now ... "What will Romanta and Javon be doing for there Birthdays?"  And of course that answer remains a "SURPRISE" to us both until then.  Hahaha.

Happy Halloween to all until next time.
Background of Javon Halloween 2003

I have been very bad at updating my site frequently.  Bad, bad, bad Romanta!  I just want to say, that I am very thankful to every one of you that take the time to subscribed and read my post.  Your comments are most certainly welcome.  I promise I wouldn't take offense to anything said; especially under the right intentions. 

This post is a response to a comment by Michel whom I think misunderstood my entry.

Michel's comment:
Romanta I have read attentively your story . I think (a ) parents must not have a child only for their needs ( you say " benefit ") . They have to give  themself to the child and not to wait for a return . They risk to be deceived later . I add a child needs a father as much as a mother . I hope your wonderful son that  I see on the back ground is able to love his father , too .  Whatever your question is very interesting .I hope I have not offended you .

Romanta's response:
I absolutely agree that a parent must not have a child only for their own needs.  And, I would never consider having my son as a benefit ... more as a blessing yes, but not a benefit.  The question at the end of my post from my previous entry wasn't asked by me, but, was asked by another person and my entry was my answer to that person. 
As for Javon's Dad he's very much so in his son's life, and they adore each other.  Javon is definitely a Daddy's boy if I might add.  From my own personal experiences I know what it's like to grow up without a father so when i have a honest, hardworking and loving man wanting to be a father to his son I would never try to make it difficult for him regardless of what my relationship is/was with him.  Even though we might have failed as a couple i don't see us failing as parents individually.  I hope this statement was able to correct any misunderstanding from my previous entry.

Please continue to post your wonderful comments and questions and know that I love it when you feel free to speak your minds.  Also, know that I truly respect what is said on your behalf.

If by any chance i feel as though I was misunderstood I will try my best to explain what I meant and hope my explanation would clarify things.

In ending, have a GREAT weekend everyone.

Being a twenty-six years old mother who's shortly about to turn twenty-seven can be hard, but extremely rewarding.  I truly thought before then I was nowhere near ready to be a parent. 

In my very large family even though I am the second oldest grandchild I was considered and treated as the "baby”. 

So, when I found out I was pregnant besides thinking "a baby" having "a baby" all these other thoughts came crushing through my head “mostly doubts” about if I would be a good parent to my child; how I would react to giving birth; and all of the responsibilities that comes along with being a parent, etc.  

But, after talking things over with my ex-boyfriend of ten plus years I was convince that we would never know if we were ready for parenthood unless we took a chance.

MY FACT: I personally feel that most of our important decisions in life comes from taking a chance.

With that being said, we decided to have our son Javon.  During a few weeks into my pregnancy I started to feel an inner connection between my unborn child Javon and I. 

When I felt almost lonely, he made me felt like someone “he” was always there to listen, comfort and guide me back to reality with strength.

I hated certain things like not being able to sleep on my tummy or in the mid of the night being awaken by weird pain; what I hated the most was the morning sickness … truly, I don't know why they call it the “morning sickness” when you get it all day long.

However, I was still in denial that I was going to become a mom sometime soon.  And, soon enough I will be bring a little person into this world and he will be mines forever.

I think the first time I truly came into realization that I was pregnant (besides the obvious big tummy; the constant throwing-up) was when I gathered as much strength as my body can to give that really hard push…

Then I heard his voice “he cried” and naturally without seeing his face I knew he was mines and I wanted to jump up from the bed and take him into my arms and let him know that “mommy is here”.

I wouldn't advice people to have a child unless they were ready to love someone more  than themselves.  The truth is most of us will never be ready because we will always have doubts.

So, how do we know what a child needs most?  My experiences are ... the key essentials to taking care of my child are: lots of patience’s, love, being financially able to support that child and being neutering always.

In return you will give up a lot … such as your needs gets place in second; losing your freedom to plan or leave as you want; having to put your wants on hold until you have met most of your child’s needs.

What do you get from all of this?  You get to see this wonderful Angel grow .. hear him/her say his/her very first words, and experience most of his/her first life experience like taking his/her very first step or being able to stand on his/her very own two feet before the world gets a glimpse of who he/she is. 

And at the mid of your prime know that you have brought not just another life into this world, but a life that came from within you; a life you watched grow into a young man or woman; a life that will one day turn to you and know that you are the source of where he/she came from and will always belong to no matter what the world have in store for him/her.

Why did I add this entry?   Because I wanted to share apart of me that means everything to my life "being Javon's Mom".  And, answer a question I was once asked by a fellow female:

Q.  "How do you benefit from parenthood and why should a person even have a child?"