August 26, 2004


  • Sometimes, it's good to know that others believe in you too.  You are all awesome individuals!  Don't let anyone tell you differently.  Thank you for your kind words in response to my previous entry.


    Cooking; I am not anywhere near being the best cook ever, but I sure wish I was.  My food don't taste that bad, because I drill those that eat it for c0mments.


    Believe it or not when at the supermarket I get extremely carried away with all the new seasonings, new food brands, etc.  Oh yes, I have those stage when I love to cook, but... yes, there's a "but" when the food is rapidly taking over the refrigerator day after day I start to lose my passion for a bit to keep on cooking.


    That's when I apply the rule "No more cooking until all this food disappears!"  Of course I see instant effort to make my rule applicable.  But, I can't help wondering why I have to lay the rule down before magic happens?


    When I asked, why aren't you eating the food out?  I always get the same response, "You cook too darn much at once and You complain about my weight, but yet You cook this much and expect me to eat it all :sigh: while You're on a diet."


    Then of course I start to pout about how terrible my food must have taste and all the compliments about liking it must be to gas my head up so my feelings wouldn't get hurt.


    Q.  Is there any pleasing the cook in such a situation?


    Q.  What would you do or say?

August 25, 2004

  • Before I get started on this entry. In response to my August 19th post Thank You to those that took the time to answer my questions.  In consideration to any question a copy of that question with person user name will be posted followed by my answer.


    Q. It is really ended ? Definitively ended ?
    by     fauquet

    A. It seems as though it is ended, but some how it doesn't feel that way.


    After my misfortune with my last job interview I became somewhat unmotivated to keep looking.  I guess I felt ... depress, sad, and not good enough.  But, being the person I am I have manage to convince myself to get back on track and not let such misfortunes hold me back.


    So, I started back looking for another job.  It sure is a taskful, but I just have to keep doing it until something comes up.  I couldn't help. but wonder what am I doing wrong.   That's why I believe no advice to be a bad one if applied at the right moment. 


    Q. This is why I ask, do you have any advice for me?

August 19, 2004

  • I can't sleep.  Well, I would if I try, but I am staying up because I can. Which got me into thinking about High School.  Yes, I know we are all grown up and some of us are way over High School, but just for a few seconds let yourself go back and try to remember...

    The classes you hated or that class you couldn't wait for because someone you had a secret crush on was going to be there.  And, that teacher that bored you to death or, that one special teacher that made leaning so easy. Or, the fun things you did with your friends.


    In those days what was important to you?  Did you ever think the life you live now is the life you would have?  Was there someone special who you meet in High School and could never forget?  Maybe, your first love?  Maybe, your High School Sweetheart?  Maybe, someone you stayed back with late hours in school just to spend almost every hour of the day with?


    Do you remember what it was like to be in love and thought that 'that person was the one you would spend the rest of our lives with?  What part of High School did you consider the best year(s) for you?


    For me the best part of High School was when I was asked out by my High School Sweetheart.  And, our relationship lasted ten years since then with a few on and off minor breakups.  From our relationship was born a wonderful, handsome little angel Javon our son.


    Sadly, that relationship ended seven months ago.  Which got me into wondering is High School still an important factor in our lives some way or the other? 


    Q. And, what would you undo or redo all over again?

August 6, 2004


  • When was the last time you stopped yourself and ask,
    “What am I becoming; where am I in life; what have I accomplished; and, what is the purpose of Me?”


     


    When was the last time you sat in a quite spot and take the time to daydream of something you wanted to become and never got around to being or; someone you miss, but can’t see?


     


    When is the last time you looked  at the person you love the most and say,
    “I love you”?


     


    Sometimes we are so focus on our everyday lifestyle that we forget what it’s like to dream and simply accomplish like we did as a child.


     


    Now as grown-ups even the simplest of things becomes complicated as it can get for us at times.


     


    We are easily lost within the everyday crowd that surrounds us and our thoughts are buried deep within the noises of billions of voices echoing through the universe.


     


    Our dreams may have even faded into the night and trapped within all of darkness.


     


    Then we find ourselves waking up fighting for one last breath only to realize it’s time to say, goodbye.


     


    Who knows maybe our next lifetime will be as we wanted it to be
    and then we would find ourselves wishing for what we was once,
    but never appreciated.


     


    Q. Who knows?


     


     


    -by B.R.A.

August 3, 2004

  • This SUCKS!  I've went on Three (3) interviews with this one company I truly liked and thought with all my heart they were going to give me the job.  I even studied the company's ENTIRE background.  Today I called my recruiter to inquire about the next date and time of my fourth interview to meet with the superior of the division and she told me that the person I was going to replace decided to STAY!


    I don't know if I am more angry, or sad at the whole situation.  Why make it so certain that the job was mines and now do this to me?  Why have me come in Three (3) times to meet with their staff?  And, then even went as far as planning my schedule in front of me and having me meet with each person I was supposedly going to work for; and having each of those people I saw tell me how much they are looking forward to having me join their staff!


    I hate these companies!  They all SUCK!  None of them would know a hard working, dedicated employee  even if that person was right in front of their faces.  Sorry I am raving like this, but I am truly sad and angry right now.  This STINKS! 


    Q. Do you think it's fair for me to be this upset?

July 29, 2004

  • I ask, what’s the most important factor in your life?
    Is it your job?
    Is it your relationship?
    Is it your financial obligations?
    Is it your education?
    Is it your career?
    Is it your family and friends?
    Is it Love?
    Or, is it Life in the whole?


    Today was a good day.
    Tomorrow will be a great day and the day after will be superb for I will set no boundaries on my happiness.

    I will allow myself to see life as it presents its' self to be and deal with my daily issues in the best of what I think is Right vs. Wrong.


    No, I will not let you take my smiles away or force me to be ashamed of my tears.

    No, I will not give you the power to control my fears and tell me what my tomorrows will bring!


    Today was definitely a good day.

    ‘Cause no matter how difficult it becomes I know only strength will come from my day to day.


    Maybe, it looks like you have succeeded.
    But, remember tomorrow will be a great day for me and the next???
    Will be SUPERB!

    -by B.R.A


    What is this all about you may wonder?  Well, I came on to add a weblog and before I knew it I was typing what appears to be a short poem.  I have the tendency to come up with strange thoughts during the course of weird moments. 


    I guess in time I will truly see the definition of what this poem means to me.  Who knows maybe in some odd way it's relating to some sort of importance in my life or even yours.  I didn't give it a Title because as I said, it just came to mind and I started to type.


    Q. Any title suggestions?


    Q.  Do you think this poem is contradicting its' statment?